Morning coffee steam billows, friendly shadows come and go, dish soap bubbles cover my forearms, and I wonder.
Sometimes I think we tend to fill ourselves with the wrong things. Wrong ideas. Wrong desires.
We fill up our hearts with what takes the pain away. For some, it’s drugs or alcohol. Others search desperately, in vain, for love from broken people, who, in turn, are looking for love in someone else. Some people exercise and workout all the time, while others drown themselves in hours of mindless entertainment or social media. I know a lot of the gifted, talented, who simply want to lose themselves in their music. Some of us who pour ourselves out – as mothers, as students, as missionaries, as friends – come to a point where we feel like we are running on empty – and some days, it just takes putting one foot in front of the other. We have become so empty, that we feel like we have nothing left to give. That we can’t pour from an empty cup. And we over-extend ourselves with our busy schedules to distract us from the pending emptiness within us.
How often do we walk in circles, in all the empty chatter and heavy traffic and endless due dates and frivolous rush of our day to day lives? The constant pursuit of soul mate (if there is such thing), as well as truth, beauty, justice, goodness, happiness, fulfillment – or what have you. But we’re all looking for the same thing. We just call it different names.
Maybe we don’t even realize it. Maybe we don’t even see the brokenness under hollow glances and tired smiles and fake hello’s. But we all know it, even if we don’t say it. We all sense it. Even more, we all live it.
But can I tell you something?
It isn’t until we’re completely empty that God can fill us with His love.
So stop filling yourself with useless things. Stop waiting for him to call back. Stop turning up the music to chase away your thoughts. Get yourself off the treadmill you’ve made for yourself. Let yourself empty. Don’t push away the pain – feel it. Even cry about it. Remind yourself that feelings are visitors – sometimes you just have to let them come and go.
Lord, empty me of me so I can be filled with You.
Take heart. Empty is just a sign that you can be filled with something else – so fill yourself with the right things.